My Dilema on This Day

Well, it's Thursday and the week is coming to an end at a good rate. The weekend is almost upon us and it's time to make plans. However, I've run into a little bit of a decision-making step that I don't feel well prepared to make yet.

My parents are headed out of town for a week, which leaves me an open house for a good amount of time. Being it still the summer time, I've got a few more weeks left with all of my friends back home before I, at least, won't be coming home during summer vacation anymore. So, I figured it was time for another good ol' fashioned house party. It was intended to be the only thing happening this weekend, thus assuring a good turnout. However, something came up...

I figured it'd be something similar to this...

This weekend, some people are going to Austin to some rush parties. KA is having their pre-Fall semester foam party, which was a blast last year. And, on the very next day, FIJI is having their pre-Fall semester Islander, which I attended at Tech (theirs is in the Spring semester) and it was, well, outstanding.

6th Street, Austin...yea it doesn't look fun at all, I know.

So now I'm stuck...my good friend (we'll call him 'Ginger') is a KA and he really wants me to come down there with him. And, in all reality, I want to as well. However, there are a few particulars I'm considering in this pickle I've managed to get myself into, and they are as follows:

Little Bro: My little brother, who's not really that little (going to be a freshman in college this fall) would be home all alone if I did travel to Austin for the weekend. I see this in two different perspectives. First of all, my brother isn't near as responsible as me, especially when he's left on his own. I'd be concerned about leaving him at home alone, worried the entire time that I was in Austin that I may come home on Monday to a smoldering heap of ash. On the other side, it'd be cool to have a joint get together with him, one that would include both his and my friends. It would not only increase the overall turnout of the shindig, but it's not often that I get a chance to party with my little bro.

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Money: Money, while it's not a huge issue, is something that sits somewhat in-between me and having an easy decision. In the words of my good friend 'Swole,' "I'd get way too fucked up and spend way too much money," which is entirely true for me as well. You see, 'Swole' was also considering tr (traveling this weekend too. However, he makes a valid point in that previous statement, because the same applies to me. I can afford it, easily, but I'm also going out of town again the next weekend, and the weekend after that, and I'm worried that my reckless spending habits may eventually catch up with me.

Opportunity: This is the biggest setback I'm having in trying to decide what I should do. Either way I twist it, I've got an opportunity no matter what I end up doing. It's not everyday that the parents, while I'm at home for the summer, give me the house for a whole week. But at the same time, it's not every day that a lot of people will be in Austin for two huge parties in a row. So, I'm stuck. I feel like there's really not a right or a wrong choice here, it's just a matter of where I decide to end up.

In the end, it's simply the fear of regret (once again) that's making my decision so difficult right now. There's another sub-category that I didn't include, and that was abandonment. My good friend, 'Freckles,' is coming to town for a wedding this weekend. However, she's not my main worry. 'Llorrac' is the one who I'd mostly be abandoning if I were to go to Austin instead of staying here. Even though I'm old enough to make my own decisions, and it wouldn't kill any friendships, I'd still feel slightly guilty.

I feel like something good could happen either way. No, not something good...something awesome. We could have a badass time here at home, and I could sleep in my own bed and save a lot of money, assuming the right people show up. However, what if the right people didn't show? Then it'd just be boring and nothing eventful in the least. Yes, I'd save money and everything, but at the same time I'd feel a strong sense of regret sitting upon my shoulders.


Or I could go to Austin and meet some awesome people and have a blasty But even that could flop, because the last time I visited Austin I ended up "walkin' around the streets...at 530 in the morning, hungover but still drunk, poor, shirtless, lost and cold."



Hopefully something will happen between now and crunch-time that will help guide me in the right direction. And, if not, I'll just say fuck it and flip a coin or something.

Keep Austin Weird, friends. Or make Wichita Falls weird. Something.